Month: September 2022

  • Nights

    Sometimes I have long days for no particular reason. I lay awake in bed, just thinking and taking some time to myself, considering the past day. That ritual clears my head. Most of the days it feels like a waste of time: I didn’t do anything special. I’m just tired, time to admit it and…

  • Balance

    Much of my life is about balance. I don’t mean that in the spiritual sense this time. Maintaining physical balance is figuring out the right way to carry things and myself from place to place, without them or me falling. I’ve been conducting multiple experiments at that for the last 23 years, not all of…

  • A Roach

    Last week I had a roach in my room. That’s not blog-worthy, but what happened afterward is. I thought it’s a test of my independence and decided to find a way to get it out of the room. first, I unsuccessfully tried to trap it in a cap. I didn’t succeed in that, so I…

  • Motivation

    One of the times we traveled in Argentina, I got really tired of walking. I stopped moving and stood still in the middle of the street. My mom, being not only a creative person but also a very rational one, thought all I need is some motivation. She promised me she’ll buy me an alfajor…

  • Mirrors

    I have a problem seeing myself in videos. They’re so “alive”, so close to reality, they capture the weirdness of my moves so well. It’s not the right thing to say, but I get embarrassed and self aware of my disability when I watch a video. Mirrors are usually less of a problem: if you…

  • Bus Station

    I bought a season pass ticket for all the college sports events. I thought it’ll be an unforgettable experience. I’m not a football person: I Googled “how many quarters football game” during the halftime performance of the first game. But being a part of 100,000 people screaming in unison is special, so I went to…

  • Wheelchair Access

    I don’t use a wheelchair. I can walk, and it’s pretty much the only exercise I’m doing. The only place in which I shamelessly ask for a wheelchair is the airport. Airports are usually big and require a lot of walk, focus and calm. I also can’t stand in the long lines leading to every…

  • Coffee

    One of my bad habits is getting coffee outside. I know it’s expensive; I know the disposable cups are bad; and yet I do it anyway. Something about walking with a hot cup in my hand just makes me feel much more like other people. Like I’m busy, like I’m going somewhere, like I can…

  • Sheets

    My mom once commented that a person becomes independent when he or she washes their own underwear, “and I haven’t washed yours in a while.” Well, she’s right – between attending boarding school and living alone, studying at the university, I did learn to do my own laundry. And after I take them out of…

  • Rain