Author: Mor Divshi

  • Tension

    Tension has always played a big role in my life. My muscle tension is higher than normal: it’s just part of having Cerebral Palsy. Every physical therapy or Pilates session eventually comes down to this – locating the tension and relaxing it, allowing more movement and freedom to my otherwise stiff right arm and leg.…

  • Represented

    I love TV. It’s a somewhat one-way love: TV doesn’t always love me back, or at least it feels that way. Ever since I started my complicated and unexpected journey in university, finding TV characters with disabilities (then critic and analyze them, and present the result to anyone who’ll listen) became a weird habit of…

  • Putting It Together

    Every new year or new semester, I find myself trying to figure out my life again. How do I put everything together one more time? Do I do anything differently? What did I enjoy more or less, and what should get my attention? What can I leave behind? To be honest, I still don’t know…

  • 1st Birthday!

    One year ago today, I published the first DisBlueCircle blog post. I couldn’t have guessed what’s about to come. I spent a long time thinking my disability is something quite private, and that my experience in the world and thoughts about it are not relevant to anyone else, much less interesting or worthy of sharing.…

  • A Fine Line

    Between this blog, two thesis ideas and actually living my life outside of the internet or university, I’ve been writing and talking a lot about my disability lately. The more I keep on that, the more I feel as if there’s a very fine line between all of it being just enough – and realizing…

  • Taking The Fall

    I fell down recently. I walked around a corner while someone came from the other side. He didn’t see me and we bumped into each other. He immediately helped me up – even though I resisted, yelled and couldn’t figure out whether and how and I got hurt. I was left there, a bit stunned.…

  • Food

    I haven’t posted anything in quite a while. I had a hard time coming up with topics. I was making a sandwich this afternoon when I realized the perfect topic is right in front of me: food. I tend to make a mess when I eat food that doesn’t fit naturally into bites. Also, since…

  • Exercise

    I’ve been excused from gym class in high school. Instead, I had to do an actual gym class – I went to the school gym, walked for 30 minutes on the treadmill and wrote it down in an Excel file. Every semester or so, I had to send the Excel to the teacher. That was…

  • Bars & Chairs

    In light of the new year approaching, here are a few thoughts about what it takes for me to drink. To celebrate my return from Texas, I went out with friends. I love doing that – it’s a good way to catch up and let loose a little. However, as the universe has it, one…

  • Thanksgiving

    Fall is finally here, and so is the fall break. I wander the empty campus wearing a hat and carrying a warm cup of coffee. Thanksgiving reminds me that almost ten years ago, someone told me to be thankful for my disability. It sounds awful without the context, so I have to expand on that…