Category: Small Victories

  • The Moment Before

    I started meditating back in 2020. My then-psychologist thought it would be good for my overthinking and anxiety. I re-downloaded a meditation app I gave up on and sat on the floor. It was weird, but I kept going. I’m still nowhere near being a lifestyle guru or even just a relatively calm person. But…

  • Cleaning

    Lately, keeping my tiny apartment clean has become more and more important to me. I guess it’s because that’s an easy way to pretend that the new week ahead, otherwise somewhat frightening, is a new beginning. I try to find the time every weekend to organize something and make my space feel a little bit…

  • Hugs

    I’ve been thinking a lot about hugs lately. A month ago or so, Dad stopped by to visit me. We talked for a while over coffee. I confessed that I was upset and worried. He hugged me before he left. I immediately felt better. He didn’t change the reason I was blue (pun intended) –…

  • Take A Walk

    Turns out its much easier to lose the ability to do things than to gain it. So to avoid this kind of loss, Mom and I take a walk.

  • Represented

    I love TV. It’s a somewhat one-way love: TV doesn’t always love me back, or at least it feels that way. Ever since I started my complicated and unexpected journey in university, finding TV characters with disabilities (then critic and analyze them, and present the result to anyone who’ll listen) became a weird habit of…

  • Problems

    Every time I leave the house, I pack a bag. I try to be prepared for all kinds of problems: I take a contact lenses liquid bottle, an extra pair of glasses, my apartment key, a hearing aids charger… The two items that make me relax immediately are my credit card and the pack of…

  • Balance

    Much of my life is about balance. I don’t mean that in the spiritual sense this time. Maintaining physical balance is figuring out the right way to carry things and myself from place to place, without them or me falling. I’ve been conducting multiple experiments at that for the last 23 years, not all of…

  • Sheets

    My mom once commented that a person becomes independent when he or she washes their own underwear, “and I haven’t washed yours in a while.” Well, she’s right – between attending boarding school and living alone, studying at the university, I did learn to do my own laundry. And after I take them out of…

  • Hold My Beer

    Two years ago, I was nearing the end of my first year at the university. I wanted to go to the university’s annual festival, “Student’s Day”, but I was scared. Public gatherings are difficult for me, mostly because the combination of being 158cm tall and very physically unstable is a winning one. People tend to…

  • Crosswalks

    I really don’t enjoy walking, as it involves moving my legs and carrying my own body weight (plus the occasional backpack) around, while trying to avoid obstacles of many kinds. But, in lack of a driving license, I find myself walking to bus and train stations. This involves using crosswalks. I love the concept of…